Raspberry Pink

People who join clubs and sports,
often hang with different sorts,
and was that really what I wanted,
to be pulled out from the dark and the haunted,
a normal person would want to be,
to be freed, to be saved,
but not me,
I wish I did,
want to be happy and brainless,
but I know to much,
and there's been too many changes,
I crave the dark and my lust for the strange,
I thrive on the twisted the lost and diranged,
Too late for me to turn back time,
to sort out my thoughts, and change my mind,
my eyes bust open, I jump as I wake,
and everything............Is Raspberry Pink!